My Love and the Life....

it for me is like a panacea. an elixir of life. its there for me always. its there for me if i'm happy. its there if i'm sad. even when i'm depressed, when i'm excited, when i'm tensed, when i'm bored or even when i'm just me. it is there for me whenever i need it. it covers all the phases of life its the best soul mate for it has no whims and fancies and i know it loves me so much that it'll never leave me and i'll be the one who'll leave her.it isn't that i can't stop, i can't quit, i can't leave her. but i always feel why should i. i can't think of a reason, i can't find an inner motivation. they say its bad for you, its bad for you - physically or mentally but who cares. it is a slow poison. but i think, it doesn't matter if you have her or not, the end for all is same. the destination of this whole journey, for all is same. its just the path which is different for all, and that is what matters the most. in the end all are going to the same place for neither do i know nor do i care if there's life after death, a world in or after the grave or anything like heaven or hell. what we have is this life and it isn't eternal rather its ephemeral. its like the passing waves of a sea. so i always think we must enjoy it to the fullest and take the most out of it, instead of it taking the most out of us. life's a one way freeway, with everybody moving fast, and in this freeway there's no one who'll be with you during the whole ride. but there can be some (though very few) who'll be with you for the most part of this journey. and to a very large extent you can decide who they'll be for they're gonna be the ones who'll influence the course of the journey (sadly not the destination of the journey). and thus you're the one who can decide which lane you wanna follow and for me i don't wanna be in the fastest or the slowest lane, i just wanna be in the most joyous and comfortable lane. i wanna be in such a lane, that when i reach my destination, i should be in a state to proudly claim, that i enjoyed my journey and i don't want this journey to get over. and if i can't do that, i will take a shortcut to reach my destination before my time and to end that freaking journey.